GlitterBuzzStyle A Single Girl's Life

Pt.8
A Single Girl’s Life

Today was the big day and I was nervous as hell. I received two calls from Mr. Bartender and I didn’t answer, I just didn’t know what to say. He has a child and I ‘m not about to be mommy, I mean I don’t even like kids so how would that work. Now my ex wants to have a talk and I’m on the edge of my seat. I was so nervous it was unbelievable!

After work I went home to change and prepare myself for a talk of pain. I put on my sexy lace blouse and my fitted jeans; I figured I should look confident since I didn’t feel it at all. I had to pull out my knee high boots and of course red lip-gloss never hurt anyone.
I wanted to get there before him so I made sure I was there thirty minutes early so I could watch him enter the restaurant. I ordered a glass of red wine and thought about the fun times we did have in our relationship. Before I knew it 45 minutes went by and my ex still wasn’t at the restaurant. I called him and didn’t get an answer. Okay this is very strange since he told me to meet him here. At that moment he walked in the door and I began to have butterflies in my stomach. Was it nerves or excitement, wasn’t too sure but I couldn’t stop shaking. It had been 7 months since I had seen Phillip and he looked really good. He had a glow to him and I was super excited to see him.
We order dinner and did the simple conversation like we were on a first date.

Than the real talk started, “So have you meet anyone Miranda” I just brushed it off and said no.
He looks at me seriously and says “Well I want to tell you I am moving on, I can’t take not being with you or seeing you. I have decided to move back to Nevada with my family. I leave Christmas Eve”. Shocked by this I took a huge gulp of my wine. I mean even though we weren’t together I was comfortable with the fact that he was still 20 minutes from me and now that he would be on the west coast I felt really distant. I didn’t want him to go back to Nevada and I wasn’t sure if him staying was a good idea either. “Oh, wow”! “Did you find a job yet in Nevada”?
“Yes, I start after New Years, I’m excited. I just want to get away from the city it has never been my thing, you know. I only came here because of you. I thought we were going to start our life here”.
That was a jab in my heart, I could tell he was running away and him being in NYC were I was just didn’t feel right for him. He looked hurt and I just didn’t know what to say. “Phillip, I love you a lot that will never change. I wanted us to start a life together as well but I am trying to find myself right now. I didn’t want to end our relationship seven months ago but you took off and ignored me for months and now your back with more breaking news”. I really wanted to be alone and figure things out because I wasn’t sure if I wanted Phillip anymore.
After dinner he handed me a box and said. “I bought this seven months ago and I was planning on giving it to you this Christmas”. I refused but he put it in my big hobo bag and all of the junk that was in it, I would be digging for days.
We said our goodnights for a good ten minutes and he was off in a taxi as I walked to my apartment.
In disbelief of the night Phillip would be a special memory that will always stick with me. As I walked to my front door step there was a bouquet of roses and a huge teddy bear. To my surprise it was from Mr. Bartender. Now my smile was so huge and I was ready to begin this new chapter in my life.